Not Getting What You Want…

Relationships, singleness

going through a breakup

It might be cheating for a Wordless Wednesday post to be a screenshot of words, which was my original intention with this post, but I posted this on Facebook yesterday and felt the urge to share it here. That photo was September 1, 2012, taken in a SLC Nordstrom after a very sweet makeup girl asked why I was in Salt Lake. I told her I had to get out of town because my boyfriend had just broken up with me. She did a full face of makeup for me – because you can’t cry when your makeup looks fantastic. (Which really is true.) That makeover session meant a lot to me and I still wear a lot of the same Clinique products.

If you want to read more about my journey during that time in my life, check out these posts:

My First Night in Salt Lake City
My Second Night in Salt Lake City
When I Told Everyone that All of My Plans had been Crushed
The Whirlwind of September 2012
When It’s OK to be Angry about a Breakup
When It’s OK to Mourn a Breakup
When I Found that Dalai Lama Quote on Pinterest

I shared in that last post that when I figured out how to move on, I would tell you guys. I’ll have to think about that and see if I can write a post. But I don’t know that it was a conscious decision. I think it was a lot of grace – grace to myself to feel the emotions I need to feel, and grace toward him to know that as much as he hurt me, he was hurting himself. And that sounds pretty shitty* for him. But I do think you need to feel all of the pain before you can start letting it go, and that’s something I avoided for a long time. Don’t be like me.

*Yes, that’s a bad word. But breakups blow. So shitty is the appropriate adjective.

Previous Story
Next Story

5 Comments

  • Reply
    Meghan
    September 2, 2015 at 7:54 am

    What a great quote, and yes, sometimes shitty is an appropriate adjective!
    Meghan recently posted…My Ideal Day.

    • Reply
      Brittany
      September 2, 2015 at 9:40 pm

      There’s really no better word!

  • Reply
    stephanie (@stephanieamber)
    September 9, 2015 at 4:08 pm

    <3

  • Reply
    Dia@ All The Things I Do
    January 25, 2016 at 7:59 am

    It’s so funny I look back now and think about things I wanted or relationships I was holding on to and now it’s like… omg I’m so glad that didn’t happen or wow I dodged a bullet. Life is funny that way and keeps you on your toes.
    Dia@ All The Things I Do recently posted…7 Reasons Visitors Aren’t Become Subscribers

  • Reply
    How I Paid Off My Car!!! (That I Never Should Have Bought) - Where My Soul Belongs
    April 18, 2016 at 7:11 am

    […] the end of 2012 I also went through a major, emotionally charged, breakup and got the opportunity to move back to Washington, but this time on the west side. I do think that […]

  • Leave a Reply

    CommentLuv badge